AR

I love her. Her vocab is really growing even in French. She's even started answering me in French instead of just in English! She's know requesting Lil Pim in French all the time. "Watch French! More French! Watch French!" She's saying, "au revoir" and "jouyent" :) She's so fun!

New Look for a new Season

It occurred to me this week that I've had this blog (and template) since 2004. That's a long time to have one template... especially for a gal that loves her options! So, I have decided to finally upgrade! It look less than 2mins to choose... and I might not leave it up for another 6yrs, but I'm loving it for the moment. This is exactly what I needed as I enter this new season of life.

Part of this new season includes a new, real career. Clients have been slow to come in, but my thesis I confess is not yet completed. Perhaps, clients will call once I officially finish my thesis? That's what I'm hoping. In the meantime I'm recommitted to finishing it soon. And I figure if I actually admit that to the "world" on my blog, then I might actually do it. I'm not typically a procrastinator by design. I tend to keep up on things or do them early. Yet for some reason this whole thesis business is throwing me for a loop. I think I finally decided it's because I think I should know more about my topic than I actually do and since I don't, I'm not writing it. Once this realization had appeared I have since decided that it's silly and shouldn't be followed henceforth. So I'm working on it today :)

Also in this new season includes house shopping, which I just noted I have not discussed at all! So in house hunting... my friend told me this should be looked at as a lot of blind dates. There are many times where you'll have wished you had left at the salad, but you find yourself ordering dessert. But then, one day, you'll find THE ONE. Well, I'm still waiting to find THE ONE (for houses that is) and I've begun to embrace the "blind date" mentality that is house shopping. Perhaps it's because there are so many options in Southeast MI that I'm being too choosy? But then again, I was choosy with a husband and that seems to be working out splendidly. Maybe I'm expecting too much concerning my stage of life, and the cost of living in A2? I'm not sure, but this is proving to be a much lengthier process that I had 1st hoped. Meanwhile I'm being reminded of the fruit of patience (in more ways than one). So we've found a couple houses we could live with, but none that feel right. (Yes, I want it to "feel" right... I am an "F" after all). But, at least Shaun and I agree on what's important in a house... so we're still on the hunt.

We still have a roommate. It's been one year this month and I can say that it has grown Shaun and I a lot to have another person living with us 24/7. It has been a good experience for us, and while we were ready to move out ourselves a few months ago, we have settled back into a rhythm. Once again, impatient branches are being pruned. It appears our roommate will have a job soon and be moving on and for this I am actually quite sad. At least my approach to good-byes is to not think about them until they've passed and that way you enjoy every minute you have.

Last but not least in this season of patience improvement we are still without child. My anticipated reaction was one of retreat and hiding. I'm pleasantly surprised to find myself quiet and sad but not overwhelmed by grief. When I look at this piece of the puzzle in light of the bigger picture of this season it seems that patience is all around. With patience comes self-control and I could sure use more of that! So I'm learning to rest in the lesson.

4th of July!

Tis my favorite holiday of them all. Grilled food, people I love, warm weather, and of course - fireworks. Few things in life get me to apply the "romantic" label, yet, white roses, dinner cruises and fireworks make the very short list. I love fireworks! They are fun, bright, loud and romantic. This year we had 3 day extravaganza. Friday night we had a friend over and Shaun made pork tenderloin tacos and margaritas. And we watched my all-time favorite movie, Almost Famous while playing Scrabble! Saturday we went to the Sailing Club where we ate grilled food and watched the fireworks over Portage Lake. Sunday we had more friends over and Shaun made grilled mint chicken skewers, potato salad and shortcake biscuits with mixed berry topping out of the berries Dan and I handpicked. Oh man was it yummy. Then we played two games of Settlers. What an awesome weekend!

Living with Boys

While I prefer to live with men over women, I've come to realize a few, shall we say, appalling traits of such an arrangement. For instance, the other day I examined my shower curtain THE DAY the cleaning lady had left. She does not clean the shower curtain per her normal duties, so this was not disturbing, but what I saw on there was! It looks like a science experiment! What do they do in there?! Being an only child and then a single woman I've always had my own shower until I got married. I assure you that my shower curtain NEVER looked like that. So, I was inclined to take care of it in one attempt... so I poured straight bleach on it, turned a fan out to blow the air out the window and left. Several hours later I returned to find the slimy things growing on there to just be lighter in color but not actually gone... what a mess. I may just have to forgo my attempts at correcting the problem and get a new curtain. Then this morning I come downstairs to find the sink and counter littered with dishes. Status of the dishwasher? Basically empty, and the few things that were in there were not organized.

They also makes weird noises...

Caring --> Not Caring

I asked someone tonight how one goes from caring for someone to stop caring for someone? Their reply, "because they didn't care in the first place." Awesome. Why didn't they care? How do you have a relationship with someone and not care? I wanna know how to do that! Even people I don't like, or strongly detest, I still care about. I don't wish harm upon them and am sad when they experience illness, job termination and the like. Alas, why do they not care about others? How self-absorbed could you possibly be? If you don't care, then you are just using people to meet your own needs, and then once they're no longer of use to you, they can be cast aside like a piece of trash - never to be thought of again. Like the flowers of the ground, when the wind carries them away, the ground remembers them no more. I am a flower... lost to the wind.

More Excitement

So, yesterday was the first Saturday Boat School I've been able to attend in like a month. Between Women on Target, and 2 weddings I haven't been around on Saturdays. So, I exceeded my goal again, this time passing the Capsizing and Rules tests. Commodore Kevin was very through on my Rules Test. He must be an "SJ." I stayed for Intermediate School and got to go out again, this time for like an hour and a half. Needless to say, I am quite burnt. Heat was radiating off me at lobster proportions last night and today. But at least I had fun.

A bunch of us were going to see Shakespeare in the Arb last night and opted for a house party instead. We have great grilled food, and brownies :) AR was most impressed w/Shaun's mac & cheese requesting "more noodles" several times. JR said that the boys have spoiled her by taking her to Panda and letting her have "mice" AND noodles. So now when JR says she's making rice, AR says, "and noodles?" She's hilarious. I haven't laughed that much in awhile and realized it's nice to have friends now that aren't connected to old friends. And I'm really enjoying the company of other women lately. Which is cool considering one of my New Year's resolutions was to spend more time with Christian women!

All that laughter came in handy as today was a sad day overall. I just wish I didn't care, or hurt, or thought about it anymore...

4 Follies

Quick update. We could end up w/quads. I'm more scared of not getting any than getting quads though. I hate the waiting game. I hate wanting. I hate caring. And sadly, most of me still seems to hate desires... or at least this desire. So we'll see what happens I guess.

More Sailing Tests

So my goals now has become to get at least one thing checked off each time I'm at the club. Tonight, I exceeded my goal by getting both my rigging and unrigging tests signed off! I was super excited that I got the boat all rigged and was content to simply take it back ashore. But Rob suggested to go out and he would crew for me. It turned out to be a great lesson and now finally feel comfortable tacking. (Which is pretty important.) I had fun and my roomie got to kayak around the lake and had a great time too. What a pleasant evening at the lake :)

Women on Target

Today was my 2nd appearance at the annual Women on Target event hosted by the NRA and the Tri-County Sportmans League of Saline. I actually did well at archery this year (the coach next to me said I was doing better than him, he's now embarrassed and thinks I need to go Target Shooting w/him). Still had a blast at the Action & Pin Shoots where I was again told, "you are a natural" (or maybe I can just follow directions well) and "don't let any man try to give you a 22 when you get bulls-eyes w/a 45." 12 & 20 gauge shot guns at the Trap & Turkey shoots respectively were not much to write home about. (I did better last year.) Really enjoyed the 22 Rifle range (where I did do better last year). Last stop: 22 Ruger Pistol range where proceeding the event my coach requesting a picture with me as I was the only perfect score of the day, then hunted me down after the event to force me to sign up for a competition in July.... What just happened?! Well, at least I had a blast and found a few guns I would buy!

Adventures Needed

It occurred to me that my blog theme is being at sea... the concept of where you're just floating around, waiting to see where you go and what gets washed up on shore with you. Yet, I can't for the life of you tell you why I did this. When my friend was helping me set up my blog she wanted to know what to call it... and that's literally the 1st thing that came to mind... thoughts from afar, as though I was at sea, looking for the shore.

Ironically 7yrs later, I have joined the UofM Sailing Club. This too was a snap decision. My friend told me about it on like a Thursday about a month ago, and then in that moment, I realized I should join. Friday while he and I were at lunch w/Shaun, I told him I wanted to do it. And Saturday we were out at the club. The following week I began to wonder what I had gotten myself into as my friend and I began to practice knot tying and I totally panicked. "Ummm," I'm thinking to myself as my friend, and now my roommate are casually picking up all these knots from a You Tube video and I'm left with some sort of twisted piece of rope I'm not sure will come undone. "Maybe I should quit the sailing club, this was a dumb idea, I'm not a sailor!" These were my second thoughts as I have now switched to be one-on-one tutored by my roommate on how to tie these knots. "I can't believe I think I can do this." Another thought after failing my 1st "Knots Test." And this does not include the myriad of thoughts swirling about physics... how much I hate it, why would I possibly need to know any of it to sail, and aren't we just supposed to be having fun here?! Fun does not include math people!

So then comes this past Saturday. My friend is out of state visiting family, so I had to go it alone. You know alert I am in the morning, and despite him loaning me his GPS to get me there, I still got lost. (Somehow I chose the wrong "Favorites" address... which luckily was right by I-94.) Yet, even more surprising is that I arrived 10mins early! (Seriously like a record...) So here I am, 2nd person there, and the Vice Commadore tells me to go rig a boat. "Oh sure, no problem, yeah, umm, where are the sails? I need a what? A rudder? Where's that? Oh yeah, of course right in front of me... because I didn't even know what I was looking for.) So of course, I have done no reading in my lil sailing book; nor have I seen anyone rig a boat before in my life. Well, here we go. So the skipper stands on the dock (above me) coaching me how to rig this boat. Then I got out for a sailing lesson with this super competitive and talkative chick. (I was so glad I had eased into my morning by this point.) All is well, so then I offer to rig another boat. This time however, I'm given no instruction and just left to my own devices. So I'm talking to God, asking Him how I just got myself into rigging a boat by myself and praying that no one dies or is injured due to this and He reminds me things to do. So I only forgot 4 things from getting the sails to docking and raising the sails... not bad.

So I'm rushing home to shower for my graduation party (which I was exactly on time for!) and God asks me, "Why do you think you can't do anything?" Hmm, well, umm, hmmm. So then I start to realize all these things God is teaching me through the Sailing Club. I'm reminded that I enjoy being challenged. I'm completely out of my comfort zone and hate talking to strangers. With practice, I can tie knots... and I passed my test. And I might even be capable of learning a small amount of physics too. God was also teaching me about competition in a few ways. Like I realized if I was competitive (or perhaps a "J") I would actually feel compelled to get things checked off my ratings list, which I really don't. (The ratings list is the what qualifies you to take a boat out by yourself, but I don't want to go by myself...) And perhaps part of the reason I don't like competition is I don't feel competent. Which is also the reason it seems that I'm hyper-apologetic. I'm apologizing to you for my incompetence so you won't get mad and leave me. How's that for a revelation. So perhaps I don't push myself like I could.

So all that to say (which I realize was a lot) brings me to my title. Another friend on Friday said he was worried about me and thinks I'm longing for adventure, but searching for it in the wrong places. I had never considered myself an adventurous person, but maybe I am after all. So with this in mind, I can get more excited about checking things off my ratings list, because then I will be able to skipper a boat and be at sea :)

"Well I've only known you less than a year..."

I seem to have this effect on people. Where somehow you think/feel you've known me longer than you really have despite it being perhaps a year... or less. A friend I met last summer asked me today if we had that conversation in the summer of 08 or 09... well I didn't know her til 09... Her response upon me pointing this out? "Good grief." Yes, I know... time flies when you're introspecting. Maybe because I'm always with myself, and all I feel I know all my friends well, I guess I take my relational style for granted. Today we packed up some friends we met a year and a half ago. They are moving back to Knoxville. Shaun and I being the expert movers and packers that we (only due to practice) got everything to fit that needed to fit... with room to spare. We had dinner at the Zingerman's Roadhouse where I fell in love w/their sweet potato fries! (Honey, can you make me this?) And per usual, it didn't hit me that they were moving until we got ready to hug good-bye. That's when it always hits me... that this will be our last hug for a long while. I've enjoyed getting to know them, and I really like her pursuit of adventure. )She was very proud of me for passing my "Knots Test" for sailing!) I hate good-byes... they never feel fair.

Graduation Party!

I had my graduation party today. I combined many folks that haven't met and don't normally spend time together as I know them from different spheres. They all mingled and got along extremely well. Shaun made the antipasti platter complete w/yummy cured meats, marinated olives, cheese and baguettes... and of course, a cake complete with a cap and scroll! I had such an amazing time. I didn't escape to the kitchen to do dishes. I didn't spontaneously start cleaning up. In fact, when it came time for the last guest to leave, he asked if we wanted help cleaning up... and I confessed I hadn't given clean-up a second thought! It was such a joy and a blessing to have many of my favorite people all in one room together.

So, as a recent seminary graduate I'm realizing that I do thrive on chaos after all. I like to be challenged and I really am an extrovert.

I Stand at the Door By Sam Shoemaker

I stand by the door.
I neither go to far in, nor stay to far out.
The door is the most important door in the world -
It is the door through which men walk when they find God.
There is no use my going way inside and staying there,
When so many are still outside and they, as much as I,
Crave to know where the door is.
And all that so many ever find
Is only the wall where the door ought to be.
They creep along the wall like blind men,
With outstretched, groping hands,
Feeling for a door, knowing there must be a door,
Yet they never find it.
So I stand by the door.

The most tremendous thing in the world
Is for men to find that door - the door to God.
The most important thing that any man can do
Is to take hold of one of those blind, groping hands
And put it on the latch - the latch that only clicks
And opens to the man's own touch.

Men die outside the door, as starving beggars die
On cold nights in cruel cities in the dead of winter.
Die for want of what is within their grasp.
They live on the other side of it - live because they have not found it.

Nothing else matters compared to helping them find it,
And open it, and walk in, and find Him.
So I stand by the door.

Go in great saints; go all the way in -
Go way down into the cavernous cellars,
And way up into the spacious attics.
It is a vast, roomy house, this house where God is.
Go into the deepest of hidden casements,
Of withdrawal, of silence, of sainthood.
Some must inhabit those inner rooms
And know the depths and heights of God,
And call outside to the rest of us how wonderful it is.
Sometimes I take a deeper look in.
Sometimes venture in a little farther,
But my place seems closer to the opening.
So I stand by the door.

There is another reason why I stand there.
Some people get part way in and become afraid
Lest God and the zeal of His house devour them;
For God is so very great and asks all of us.
And these people feel a cosmic claustrophobia
And want to get out. 'Let me out!' they cry.
And the people way inside only terrify them more.
Somebody must be by the door to tell them that they are spoiled.
For the old life, they have seen too much:
One taste of God and nothing but God will do any more.
Somebody must be watching for the frightened
Who seek to sneak out just where they came in,
To tell them how much better it is inside.
The people too far in do not see how near these are
To leaving - preoccupied with the wonder of it all.
Somebody must watch for those who have entered the door
But would like to run away. So for them too,
I stand by the door.

I admire the people who go way in.
But I wish they would not forget how it was
Before they got in. Then they would be able to help
The people who have not yet even found the door.
Or the people who want to run away again from God.
You can go in too deeply and stay in too long
And forget the people outside the door.
As for me, I shall take my old accustomed place,
Near enough to God to hear Him and know He is there,
But not so far from men as not to hear them,
And remember they are there too.

Where? Outside the door -
Thousands of them. Millions of them.
But - more important for me -
One of them, two of them, ten of them.
Whose hands I am intended to put on the latch.
So I shall stand by the door and wait
For those who seek it.
I had rather be a door-keeper
So I stand by the door.

Things I was thinking about...

Beth Moore in "Breaking Free" gives us 5 thgs that are our birth right:
1) To know God and believe Him
2) To glorify God
3) To find satisfaction in God
4) To expc God's peace
5) To enjoy God's presence

Then gives 5 obstacles that prevent these from happening
1. Unbelief
2. Pride
3. Idolatry
4. Prayerlessness
5. Legalism

She later says, "If our liberty in Christ is going to be a reality in life, we are going to have to learn to walk in the freedom of Christ, independent of everyone else we know." Of course we need to rely on the BODY of Christ to help us so we can glorify Him together. She asked us what areas of captivity we had been set free from already. So I realized that I have been freed from the bondages of lying, insecurity, judgmentalness. How exciting is that?! Beth also says, "God hears the cry of the oppressed. He even hears the cries of those whose oppression is a result of sin and rebellion." Life is way too short for me to feel sorry for myself because of my sin because there is life and freedom through what God did.

I was really struck by the Heb word "aman" meaning to be firm, enduring, to trust and I asked myself how I had found Him to be faithful and trustworthy. His Word says He is, answers to prayer and that He tells me to trust Him when I'm struggling. Words to think about today for sure.

Couintry Songs I Like

The list is growing... here's the latest additions:

Trace Adkins "You're gonna miss this" - I love the lyrics to this one. It's so true, yet sometimes I'm glad it's over b/c I love where I'm at too.

Kenny Chesney "Dont Blink" - Wow, really like this and the lyrics are so true!

Jason Aldean "Amarillo Sky" - Hmm, makes me realize that G.A.P. & He gives us everything we need.

Tim McGraw "Live like you were dying" - This is very cool!

Josh Turner "Would you go with me" - This is a super fun song... so cute :)

"Not knowing what shall befall me there." --Acts 20:22

I KNOW not what will befall me: God hangs a mist o’er my eyes;
And thus, each step of my onward path,
He makes new scenes arise.
And every joy He sends to me comes like a sweet surprise.

I see not a step before me as I tread on another year;
But I’ve left the past in God’s keeping,—the future His mercy shall clear.
And what looks dark in the distance may brighten as I draw near.

For perhaps the dreaded future is less bitter than I think;
The Lord may sweeten the waters before I stoop to drink.
Or, if Marah must be Marah, He will stand beside its brink. It may be He keeps waiting, for the coming of my feet.

Some gift of such rare blessedness, some joy so strangely sweet,
That my lips shall only tremble with the thanks they cannot speak.
O restful, blissful ignorance! ’tis blessëd not to know;
It keeps me still in those mighty Arms which will not let me go,
And lulls my weariness to rest on the Bosom that loves me so.

So I go on not knowing,—I would not if I might;
I would rather walk in the dark with God than go alone in the light;
I would rather walk with Him by faith than walk alone by sight.

My heart shrinks back from trials which the future may disclose,
Yet I never had sorrow but what the dear Lord chose;
So I send the coming tears back with the whispered words, “He knows.”

--Mary Gardiner Brainard

Quote for the day

"Have you ever been in love? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore." -Neil Gaiman

I can't imagine my life not being impacted by those whom I love. However, sometimes I feel as though my life would be better off without all these divots on my heart where those that got in did damage. Sometimes I invited them there, and other just appeared, or got in by force. The feeling is the same. You touched my heart. You reworked part of it. My life got messier as a result. Divots are impressions on the soul. Once they are there, you are never the same afterward. I am forever changed by your love.

Favorite Quotes

"No one ever poses hypotheticals for things that turn out well." - Me

"Adrianne, superficial conversation is your kryptonite." - Jennifer Jones

"Rare is the person that is ready for your level of engagement." - Dr. Shaun Clarke

"It's an ironic thing, trust. You need it to become intimate, but trust comes from intimacy." - Andrew Ward

"If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." -Marilyn Monroe

"Never take it seriously. If you never take it seriously, you never get hurt. If you never get hurt, you always have fun." Miss Penny Lane

"Speak the Lord's truth even when your voice shakes and I think He will provide the strength to carry your voice, A." - Jennifer Jones

Satan deceives us in saying, "You are not really sinning; You can never change; and You will not be happy if you leave this lifestyle." - Dee Brestin

"It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick...I desire mercy, not sacrifice. For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners." - Jesus

"God can't use a person to the maximum until he or she has been deeply hurt." - A.W. Tozer

Happiness isn't something you experience, it's something you remember. - Oscar Levant

"Sin will take you farther than you wanted to go, keep you longer than you wanted to stay and cost you more than you thought you'd pay." - Kay Arthur

It's not what happens to us that matters, but what happens in us.

"Women are like tea bags. Put them in hot water and their true strength emerges." "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"The only truths that eventually grip Christians at the core of their being are the truths by which they consistently live." - Larry Crabb

Words by Charles Wesley

"If DEATH my friend and me divide,
tho dost not, Lord, my sorrow chide,
or frown my tears to see;
restrained from passionate excess,
thou bidst me mourn in clam distress
for that rest in thee.

I feel a strong immortal hope,
which bears my mournful spirit up,
beneath its mountain load;
redeemed from death, and grief, and pain,
I soon shall find my friend again
within the arms of God.

Pass a few fleeting moments more
and death the blessing shall restore
which death has snatched away;
for me tho wilt the summons send,
and give me back my parted friend
in that eternal day."

God is a God of Beauty

The sermon this morning was titled "God is a God of beauty." His main points were God makes things to enjoy them; He's not just a utilitarian. Things, people have instrinic beauty, and are not just beautiful because someone says so (i.e. "beauty is in the eye of the beholder). This of course means... well, that I have intrinsic beauty...

I've been struggling lately with some concepts. Concepts like, you might actually like me as a person, or be attracted to my heart, or heaven forbid, enjoy me. You might not be spending time with me just because I'm useful to you or because you want to use me. Not everyone may have received the script to abuse me, reject me and abandon me. God has placed me in MI where people aren't doing this. People are trying to care for me on an entirely different level that has made me wish I had to move out of state yet again. It's only exposed that I don't know how to receive care. My friend CD tonight said this, "ur heart is the most beautiful thing about u.... ur an amazing person." My friend, BC said, "God created you that way... and in Christ your heart is perfect and pure." It's easy for me to dismiss this comments usually with thoughts like "it's all Him" and "I have no righteousness of my own." BC said, "it is... but He chose to give it to you." So if I have His... then I have some...which only sent me into a panicked state.

I realized that I've bought into the idea in the current evangelical church that says beauty is expendable, not needed to the point that frugality equals righteousness. I still have the mindset that I make 18K/yr... while I see money as merely a tool for God's kingdom and not just to acquire stuff, I think I've taken it too far. Not only have I tied in my own value (or beauty) into my worth I've now tied others worth to their usefulness, including stewardship of money, time, resources, gifts. I try to use "mine" to the fullest... but I never just enjoy beauty, because to enjoy something is to enjoy it at it's core, it's being, it's intrinsic value. I don't know if I can do that because I don't see my own intrinsic value.

Rev. 3:16 "So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth" has been coming up nearly daily since June 24th at the Rise Against concert. God has been showing me all the things I'm "lukewarm" about. I was thinking about my body, how I don't love it or hate it, it's just kinda there to help me do things. But J/CR pointed out tonight that we will have this body in Heaven, not a body we don't recognize... and everything we do here is preparing us for Heaven including what we do to our bodies. So, if I don't use my creativity here, then I won't be given creative tasks in Heaven; if I don't take care of my body here it will be reflected in Heaven. What we do here does matter. It's not all futile, but I've been living in part as if that were true. It's like gnosticism...

So, I'm not sure where these musings will lead me next, but I'm buckled in to find out.

Random & Sporadic

Warning: Many thoughts that don't connect.

1) I have 5 weddings to attend this year... wedding madness is in the air. Oh the sweet aroma. Stef and I reminisced today about how much we hated wedding planning and talking about all the "if's" of what we could do differently now. I'm hoping all my bride and grooms to be have an easier go at it then us :)

2) Two more friends have announced their pregnancy - and to my excitement, I was elated! I held my friend's newborn at the retreat and just loved it. And loved handing him back for a full night's sleep. God is good.

3) I got another email from a testimony listener today - it was incredibly thoughtful. I feel overwhelming encouragement. This makes my 9th email. I decided to create a gDoc to store all these emails and save them for future encouragement when I get down about my ministry.

4) While contemplating my testimony a couple weeks ago I stumbled across this quote from a friend (DM's) page and I'm still in awe by how it penetrates my soul:
"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them-words shrink things that seemed limitless in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. ……The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried....... And you make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller but for want of an understanding ear…."

5) Beth Moore says, "God hears the cry of the oppressed. He even hears the cries of those whose oppression is a result of sin and rebellion." My friend Jess said life is too short to feel sorry for yourself and that there's freedom in what God did. Indeed. I was really struck by the Heb word "aman" means to be firm, enduring, to trust. I asked myself how I had found Him to be faithful and trustworthy. His Word says He is, answers to prayer and that He tells me to trust Him when I'm struggling. Then I came across Hab 3:2: Lord, I have heard of your fame, I stand in awe of your deeds, O Lord. Renew them in our day, in our time make them known. (Which I think ties in nicely with my post from yesterday.)

6) There are only 6 weeks left in my semester - how did that happen? I need to write more!

7) I'm struggling with how to talk to a . . . person, acquaintance, casual friend. I'm feeling led to talk to him, but feeling he's totally uninteresting. And sense he feels the same way towards me. Maybe God will chose to use someone instead...

2009 Knox Women's Retreat

So I attended the women's retreat with our church last weekend. I was on the planning committee, so I was pretty busy the whole time, but I'm glad I went. I walked away with a few thoughts I wanting to share, some questions to ponder and of course, some God moments...

Friday night was interesting in that I got there, all settled in, and it wasn't really hectic. I realized that I hadn't really thought about the fact that I was there to spend some alone time with God. I had been so busy writing 2 papers, taking a mid-term in Trinitarianism and taking a quiz that I hadn't mentally prepared to be there. I started talking with my friend Deb at the registration table as we were getting the ladies checked in and settled. I realized how much I enjoy working with the women at Knox and how much I love serving these women. Annherst spoke that night about Christian friendships and community. I had to laugh because I kept thinking that she was saying everything that I always say! It was great to be reaffirmed about intentional, transparent relationships. We ended the session and I had organized a spa night for the ladies. My massage therapist friend came and gave 10 minute massages, and I had a hand and nail stations set up for them to dip, scrub and rub and then I painted their nails. It went over so well. (Ya know you don't hear about men doing a spa night at their retreats!) Then Jenny and I had an amazing chat at the hot tub awaiting our call from Andy and Laura - as he was proposing. So my best friend got engaged... so stoked!!

Saturday I was awoken way to early... and of course, that means like before 10am :) It was indeed 8am. Diane spoke in the morn from John 15. There's an intimacy in John's Gospel - an intimacy He wants with us, so much, that He gave us His word, and asked us to abide in Him. When you see a vineyard you can be surprised how much has to be lobbed off in order for the vine to bear fruit the next season. We can be lobbed in actions, words or in our heart. But abiding doesn't mean that we're busy bearing fruit all the time, because by root, abiding happens in Him and is more of a static word. And when the roots are the most deep are when Jesus needs to uproot us the most. (No wonder I had to live in three states in one year...) Abiding is more about patience, steadfastness and perseverance. By acting like shriveled branches we are depriving ourselves of the most deep love that's offered in Christ. We will be amazed at the fruit on the branches. Take the promises off the shelf and start believing in what He can do and then ask Him for them.

We had personal quiet time... which was most interesting. I basically realized that I need to be expecting more from Him... more on this later. We broke up into discussion groups and I decided if the group I was leading had a lull I would ask them this additional question: What have you been avoiding that God is calling you to do and what steps can you make towards obedience as you leave the retreat? There was indeed a lull, and I got some interesting responses to my question. I saw a theme in my group - women not believing that we are told that we will do greater things than He. The evening testimony had me tears. Eileen spoke of living in a foreign land for 13 yrs and touched my heart with her statement about how you can be so lonely in a crowd of people. Her heart for community and people is not unlike mine. I realized that I too find myself with that feeling often... perhaps because I don't allow others to minister to me in the way I insist on ministering to them. Sufficed to say, an amazing intercessory prayer time and more awesome convos later - it was bed time.

Sunday's talk was good. But I was still mulling over the thoughts from the night before. I've been contemplating the following since my return...

How much of my ministry am I trying to do in the Flesh instead of in Him? Are Jesus' words penetrating me to the point of wanting to ask Him for things?

GISF = God is so fun!!!

God is so good to me... I shared my testimony at church a little over a week ago now. My small group and prayer warriors have been praying about it for nearly three months and then it was here! I couldn't believe how surreal it was to be that open in front of that many people. Jenn had a crazy week so we couldn't really process like we usually do because we were processing only her craziness... and everyone seemed tied up! It was wild. Jenn said as I was getting ready to head to church that maybe I wasn't supposed to think about it too much, but just let Holy Spirit lead it and do it. So that's what happened and WOW! It was so fruitful just as God said it would be! We had 10 people come up for prayer and countless women came to share how my story had touched them! Yay God! I've even had people following up with me the last two Sundays after church talking to me about it. It's simply incredible! I pray God continues to use me and my story for His kingdom!!!

Preggo?! What else is new...

OK... so I always told myself I would never become one of those bitter women who no longer lept for joy at the news of her friends announcing their pregnancy. How selfish I thought they sounded. Of course, logically, I realize God's in control, having a baby right now would be hideous timing, and not to mention extremely costly to my school and home life. But there's nothing rational about having a baby...

Since December 2007 we've perpetually had 12 friends pregnant. As soon as one gives birth, another friend pops up within a week to announce her news. We even had one friend miscarry and still had a 'replacement.' Sigh. We had friends tell us today they are expecting. And I didn't jump up and down, start clapping, or spring to the phone to squeal my excitement. And then it hit me - I've become one of THEM! Oh my. I don't know how this happened. When I stopped believing in my heart and only with my head. But I'm praying this too will pass and I can be filled with joy for the new blessing that will be entering our lives.

A Test For Your Salvation

So there's this song called, "Who Can Pluck Us" by this Christian rapper guy named Flame (that I keep wanting to call Flash). Rap usually isn't my genre of choice, but being with Shaun for nearly 11 yrs can wear a girl down to appreciate some of almost anything. So during the song he starts rattling off a list of ways to know if you're saved. I found this list very intriguing and goes as follows:

Do you enjoy fellowship with God?
Are you sensitive to sin?
Do you obey God’s Word?
Do you reject the evil world?
Do you eagerly await Christ’s return?
Do you see a decrease pattern of sin in your life?
Do you love other Christians?
Do you experience answered prayer?
Do you discern between truth and error?
Do you have the witness of the spirit?
Are you rejected or persecuted for your Faith?
Just a lil taste for your salvation man
Read the whole book of 1 John

So...how do you fair on the answers to this list?

Reflections on 2008

It's the beginning of 2009 and it doesn't seem possible. I'm realizing a lot has happened in the last year and have decided it's worth archiving. The year began with over a foot of snow in our new hometown and state of Ann Arbor, MI. We quickly began to like to the city, but dislike the weather. We found lots to do, and plenty of places to eat. The church search started off slowly, but we were settled by the end of Feb at Knox. We began serving right away and got involved in a small group, and I joined 2 womens Bible studies and a prayer group. The southern hospitality was severely lacking and we began taking great pangs to bring some of that to the great white north.

We started making some good friends and were traveling all over the place. First I went to Lafayette to help a friend with their new baby while Shaun went to Houston. Then he went to Berkeley, then I went to Lakeland, then he went to Nashville. Aug was a big with both of us going to Glen Lake and Italy. Then we met up with friends in Chicago, then I went to Lynchburg while Shaun was in Germany. Then we went to Lafayette for my great uncle's funeral. (Where I realized I hadn't mourned the loss of my great aunt who died the month prior...) Then we went to Knoxville and then back to Lafayette and Indy and back again. Whew.

Meanwhile, our old friends from Purdue, along with some new ones joined us in the Mitten. God began to do mighty works in all our lives and our small group grew closer. I had more epiphanies this year than ever before. I shared my testimony twice and have been asked to share it at a womens event in Feb at Knox. I started grad school at a Seminary and finally felt for the 1st time, maybe ever, that I had real purpose and didn't want to die. I also started appreciating how great we had it in Knoxville, and how times like that don't always come as easily.

It was a great year. God taught me so many things I hope I can remember them. I have started compiling and typing out the epiphanies so hopefully that will help. The theme for 2008 was, "Get out of your comfort zone." I think I fulfilled this one to the max!

Deep in Thought

Ever felt so insignificant that you start to wonder why you bother thinking at all??? Well... I'm there today. Have been feeling a little... off, for awhile now. Tried many things to get back to a state of normalcy. Some work temporarily, but inevitably I find myself back here. My small group finished studying the book of Daniel tonight. We were in chapter 12, technically, but found ourselves in all sorts of places during our discussion. We were trying to figure out the differences b/w Pre, Post, and A-Millinialist and Pre and Post-Tribulationists while trying to figure out which camp we are in. We looked up many passages concerning eschatology. All this only to come to the conclusion that Jesus told Daniel... it's sealed up, not for you to know, and even the angels don't know, but be encouraged, because you have treasurers stored up in heaven. Great. So why don't I feel encouraged? Have a mentioned that I feel like I'm going to be a horrible counselor? If I can't even figure out my own stuff, how can I help others. Obviously the answer is the Spirit and the Word, but you know what I mean. I keep thinking about what John said... that there will be many spiritual battles while attending seminary. Alas.

Too many opportunities and not enough time...

OK, so I've been asked to do the following... you may see a pattern emerge.
1) Serve on the Women's Leadership Committee to do publicity and plan a retreat.
2) Create, organize and lead an international students ministry at our church.
3) Help team-lead a Bible study at a local nursing home.
4) Serve on the newcomers committee at church.
5) Lead Covenant Couples Group that has monthly events.

These of course are in addition to babysitting ~20hrs/wk, Gran-sitting 6hrs/wk, 15 credit hours of school, small group, a prayer group, leading another small group and two women's Bible studies. Oh yeah, and continue to cultivate and maintain meaningful relationship with friends in multiple states while maintaining a healthy marriage and getting good grades. Yeah right.

So one could say I'm over it. Ready to just say no to everyone and everything and retreat with a cup of tea and one of the many books 'in que.' (Because the recommended reading list for psychology classes is more work than the classes themselves.) But the other part of me could say yes I would love to help out any way I can. I don't need sleep - overrated. But Shaun said that he thinks I have been doing too much for the past 3 yrs and need to settle down. So if you have any thoughts on what exactly I should be doing . . . let's just say, I'll take it under advisement when I get back from having my retreat.

Community

An interesting word . . . and concept. I like to define it as true connection, accountability, authenticity and vulnerability with real people. This is something I have had a taste of and have been trying to get again ever since. And I think it's finally happening for me. This week alone we have connected with many people, and actually had deep conversations. It's been a great week, yet a tiring one. Oh, and it's only Wed! But I'm so thankful for the body of believers I've met in A2 and how they are challenging me to think and grow. I'm thankful for the community I have in towns where I once lived and how I've been reconnecting with you all this week too. God has created us as relational beings - while frustrating at times, I'm glad about this too. Because without these friends, I would truly be lost at sea...

God is good

Went on a field trip with my prayer group last night to the Healing Rooms. I went in expecting one thing and God provided me with something more abundant. And I couldn't have asked for a better group of women to share in my experience! I have felt refreshed today and as if a heavy burden has been lifted off me from the last three weeks of battle. Oh how amazing is His love! I also found out last night that this revival I have been hearing about in FL is in Lakeland, FL! That's where Stef & Josh are moving and where I'll be in just under two weeks! I'm so excited to get a chance to attend the revival there. And I'm sure that's not a coincidence! If only this feeling could last forever... well, while on earth :)

Busy, Busy Weekend

My weekend really began on Friday. We drove to Lawton, MI and visited with our dear friends Tom & Sherry from Knoxville. It was so great to see them and spend time out on the lake. It started out as a beautiful afternoon and then the rain came. But we still had a great time catching up and taking lots of pictures!

Saturday I presented my final project for Marriage & Family Dynamics in the morning. I think it went fairly well. Then I worked with 'Gran' the rest of the afternoon and into the evening. Then we went to Top of the Park with Laura. 'Top' as it is commonly referred to is a annual 3 week festival downtown. There is live music and movies. It's actually a very cool thing they do.

Sunday we had church and small group. I really do love my small group :)

So I have spent today recovering from all the bustle and am headed to the Healing Rooms tonight with my prayer group. I'm really excited about it and look forward to sharing about my experience there!

I'm a Seminarian

I have been pondering this title this week. A seminary student. Yes that's me now; a part of who I am. As I have been working through some things this week it seems in some ways things don't add up. My past, my present. But then again, Jesus doesn't call us a "new creation" for nothing. When I tell people I'm going to seminary, their eyes get wide and they raise their eyebrows while saying, "oh . . ." followed by a variety of remarks from: that's nice, how exciting, I would've never guessed. I don't really know what to do with the latter answer other than say, Yes Jesus works in mysterious ways.

I've almost completed my 1st semester as a seminarian. I've really enjoyed my classes so far and have been starting to think about what my practice will look like. My Marriage & Family Dynamics professor is always asking us what we will specialize in and until today I wasn't really sure. For that class we had to come up with a proposal for problem we see in the church. Being the over-achiever that I am ;) I chose Sexual Addiction in Women. A very interesting, yet under-rated topic in today's churches. My research today suggests that it's just as prevalent in women as it is in men, yet there are not many resources available for women seeking purity. After completing my project a moment ago I'm thinking that this could be an area I could specialize in. Just indeed - Christ works in mysterious ways.

A piece of my heart

I had a realization this morning. Kind of strange, kind of not. I realized that I had given my friend a piece of my heart. I guess this only seems weird as we haven't known each other that long, but then again we don't have long on this earth. I think of that often. How fast life seems to pass me by. Hours are suddenly days that are suddenly weeks. It's June already. I can't believe it. I was looking an email from school and it says I have a deadline of July 1st. No problem I thought - oh wait, that's like soon! Drat. And old people are always telling you to enjoy whatever stage you're in now because before you know it, it's gone. I started grad school last month. As I sat in my 1st class of the Spring semester I realized that I had not been in school, taken a test or gotten a grade in five years! What?!? I don't even know where to begin to tell you how quickly the last five years went. So, in lieu of all this, I'm trying to connect most deeply and quickly as I know how, trying to savor each moment I have here. (Not just on earth, but in A2.) Of course there is danger in connecting too quickly . . . that is when you've given someone a piece of your heart, but they aren't aware of it. Then what? Well I guess it makes sense that you would tell them, but of course that is very vulnerable. But then again, so is giving away a piece of your heart. I've been thinking about the verse Proverbs 4:23, "Above all else, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life." I'm not sure why He created us this way, with our heart being our life. But it's true. Relationship with fellow humans and especially fellow brothers and sister in Christ are something that can encourage, and heal me or seem to totally destroy me. So I'm guess I'm still working through that, but in the meantime, I will continue to share my heart with those around me in hopes of them entrusting me with a piece of theirs.

Contemplative . . .

Hard to believe this time last year I had been in K-ville for six months, making friends, finishing a Bible study, learning a new city and growing some new friendships. At this point last year I had spent my 1st Easter w/o my family, spent a week in the hospital w/ Shaun and his ruptured appendix, gone home for my dad's wedding, and was in Lafayette preparing for Krystal & Chris' wedding. Weird. I had formed a new part of my identity, and tapped into one lost in my youth. One of a vibrant Christian woman, eager to serve Christ and know Him more deeply. Our teaching pastor would always say, you are either engaging in righteousness or unrighteousness. I was leaving very little time for an unrighteous thoughts let alone actions.

So here I am, one year later and just spent another six months making friends, finishing Bible studies, and getting to know a new city. But the growing friendships thing is what's been most . . . different. I don't know what happened really. When I moved to Knoxville I was dying to meet people, make friends, get connected. And the Lord moved slowly (it seemed) at first. But when I moved here I was ready to enjoy some Sabbath time with the Lord. But instead, I got connected more quickly than ever. Just after a month of being at our new church we were helping with a concert and attending a small group. My schedule was quickly filled with ministry opportunities and oddly enough two jobs! Something I immensely wanted in Knoxville, but Lord wouldn't allow me to have. Now when I wasn't even looking for one I got two!. However, all this connecting I was doing was not leading to deeper friendships. Rather I just 'knew' more people. In K-ville many of my friendships were deep. Here, none of them were. Well, that all started to change on Memorial Day . . .

Our small group decided we wanted to start doing some social together so we could get to know each other more. What a great idea we thought, and we'll even host a cook-out. Of course we didn't have a grill, but the Lord provided a grill when Dad & Val came to visit and bought us one as a housewarming gift. Then my new job money paid for the food we provided, and everyone was actually able to attend. How exciting I thought - everything is coming together. So, I get the hair-brained idea to share testimonies. I mean what better way to get to know people than to hear how God has brought them to Himself, used them, and is growing them. Oh, I was so excited to hear everyone's testimony . . . that is until I realized I had to share mine. Bam. It hit me. I have to share my testimony. Crap. What was I thinking?!? This is the dumbest idea I've had yet. So dumb in fact, maybe we could play Settlers instead. So the week before the big day I was having a conversation with a guy in our small group that spends many hours here a week getting schooled by Shaun in shooty games. I was saying that I was really nervous and that I didn't think I could share my R-rated testimony when most of the group except him, had a G-rated one. He said it would be fine, as did Shaun. For the next week I had thoughts I hadn't had in YEARS. And not good ones either. Satan was really playing me hard and I was allowing it. So then came Memorial Day. We had some nice conversation and lunch. Then we were all gathered around and I tried to deflect to playing a game and Shaun said, "Well if we're gonna share, we should do it now. I'll start." Great. So, he went, then I went. OK, it's done, I should feel better right - um not so much. Actually I felt, worse, far worse. Then as the week went on, it got worse and worse. Then one of the ladies in my small group had a show at this coffee house. I felt like I had stepped back in time to a super-fun place. I kept looking around the room thinking, these are my people! I love it here. I need to get out more often. Then Shaun left for a week for work. That's when things got interesting.

I had packed my week with many people and activities to not notice that I was home alone, for the 1st time in two years. One of the ladies in my small group came over a couple nights to spend time with me. We had a great time and we were really hitting it off. Which was great as when we first met I didn't think she liked me and we wouldn't get along. (She said she felt the same way.) So we had a great time and have been getting close, but then she started to share something on her heart. The counselor in me came out and I felt if I really loved her, I couldn't let her live in denial anymore. So I decided to get to the bottom of her delema. Unfortunately, the bottom was not what she was hoping for. A few nights later, Shaun has returned and we went out. That's right - I actually went out, which was awesome. We had a great time. Then the next night we had small group and I talked to her afterwards. She seemed upset, but I was studying so I wasn't giving her my undivided attention. Then abruptly she decided to go to bed. Then yesterday, nothing from her. I left lost all day, wishing I could talk to her. Then I got an email . . . and yes, it was after 9PM. (Why don't I listen to my husband?)

Devastated. That's a word for it. She was, and then I was. I had totally let her down. Here I go again, trying to be helpful, only not looking at what could happen if the truth were set free. You would think I would be a little more tuned in with Holy Spirit and see if He thinks it's a good idea, but no. I will be seeing her tonight, but I'm worried. Concerned, that she is mad, or even to see her still struggling. So, I'm trying to take my own advice today, and lay my burden at the foot of the cross. I'm so sorry dear, truly I am.

Getting back into the groove

So I apologize for not blogging in nearly a year. It has been a crazy one. The wedding was fabulous! I had an amazing time and being married is wonderful. We went to Kauai for the honeymoon which was also spectacular. We have been renting out my mom's house which has posed a number of problems from flooded basement (on 3 occasions) to most recently mice. Yes, I'm staying at our friends John and Debbie's until I leave for TN Friday. Yes, Shaun has been in TN for going on 3 weeks now. I miss him more than I can explain. I honestly feel like a widow. So, Friday will be the first time I've seen him since June 4th. I'm excited, however, I feel it will be difficult to leave. I've been making some new friends in Shaun's absence. I'm become the "116 wife" as I've gone out with Andy, Justin and Volkan. I've visited with Missy and Drew which has been nice since we haven't seen them as much as I would like since they moved. There were are neighbors for a while and we would spend at least one night a week together, drinking, playing poker and the like. I took a woman's Bible study this winter with Angelina. I decided to give up ranch during the study, because the study was about increasing your faith. It definately took a lot of faith to give up ranch. Now, oddly, I'm not really liking it anymore. Very odd indeed. Amazing what you think you can't live without and then you don't even desire it any more. Well I am going to make a concerted effort to write more soon . . .

Bridezilla's Wedding

So, we finally got Stef married off. First, the rehearsal went long as people were stuck in traffic due to I-70 being closed because of an accident. We had fun though. The rehearsal dinner was at another church down the road. Jerry and Jane had food catered in that was excellent.

The 8 wedding colors didn't look that bad as they were spread out. The cake was the only detail that was truly odd. And if you didn't know if was supposed to be a city building with windows, it might've looked OK. Janelle, Traci and I were in pretty bad moods Friday and theirs didn't improve much Saturday. I tried to just ignore her so I could stay in a good mood. I got some ideas out of it though, so that's a plus. I was disappointed that I didn't get a picture with just Stef or Stef and Josh. Shaun and I are going to make an effort to get one with each of our attendants separately and together. We didn't get a chance to sign the guestbook either. I think we will bring ours to the rehearsal dinner so that everyone gets a chance to do that. We have been having a hard time find a big enough autograph mat for 200 people. Alas.

So, apparently Stef says she will never do that again... course that's the point. I hope all works out well.

Stef's Bachelorette Party

So, Stef is getting married in 4 days. (We're getting married in 60). Janelle, Traci and I wanted to give her this awesome party to really celebrate the death of her bachelorettehood. She wasn't having it. She basically turned down every cool idea we had. SO, we decided not to tell her what we were doing, and told her to show up at my apt at 6:30. (Needless to say, I didn't leave Lafayette from my shower until 5:50... but who's counting. Oh, and we made it on time). We did a toast, and then headed to Jillian's where we ate and had a few drinks. Stef played Shuffle board with Angela and actually liked it. Then she looked bored, so we decided to head back to the apartment. Now, Stef had wanted a "spa" theme, so Traci and Janelle found some homemade recipes online for various facial treatments. They picked this oatmeal, honey and pineapple mask. It was disgusting. I was the guinea pig. They didn't crush up the pineapple very much so it was running down my hair and into my ears. I was shrieking the whole 10 minutes. Oh, and it looked like baby barf. The second batch Traci crushed the pineapple more, so it was more sticky than anything else. I got out the foot bath that Shaun bought me. It was a huge hit! We snacked and played "Question Jenga" where you pulled a block out and then handed it someone who you wanted to hear their answer to that question. It was quite enlightening. We went to bed at 4 AM.

Stef, Angela, Traci and Janelle woke up at 8:30 and went to Starbucks and came back. Krystal and I slept through it all. We awoke at 11 to find them all going to lunch. We decided to stay up and through some lasagna in the oven. Later, Traci and Janelle came back and we went swimming. It was so hot out, and the pool felt so nice. She came back, showered, and went to Cheeseburger in Paradise for dinner. Krystal and I split the Not to Particular burger which was quite tasty. Traci and Janelle split the shrimp appetizer and a Cheeseburger in Paradise drink. I also got one, but for some reason they gave me the large, and gave them a small one. I thought I was going to die. Luckily Krystal help me drink some of it.

"From My Shower to Yours"

Renee and Krystal threw me a bridal shower on Saturday. I had a blast. We played this game where everyone got their plate as they arrived and wrote on the back how they knew me. Then after everyone had arrived, they gave their plates to me, and I had to guess who they were. Then I gave them their plate back, and they would have their piece of cake. I only missed two... and they were both hard. Then we did a "Shaun & Adrianne Trivia Quiz." I got them all right! Ma won. She said, "I've known Shaun for 25 years, and Adrianne for 7, so I better win!" It was pretty funny. We visited and ate cake. We drank memosas and punch. Then it was present time. I haven't sat in front of a crowd and opened presents in a long time. It was quite the odd feeling. But we got lots of cool gifts. It's had been so long since I registered I had forgotten what I registered for. We received: an electric wok, spice rack, bar caddy, spice gift set, fondue set, iron, spritzer, ironing organizer, tupperware bowl, garnisher, canister set, clock, picture frame, crock-pot, oil & vinegar set and a wooden salad bowl set. Most of the stuff was stainless steel of course! I handed out little bath salts wrapped in toole that said, "From my shower to yours." They were so cute. I have more I'm giving out at my next shower. I think everyone had a great time. Thank you Renee and Krystal!!!

Forgot...

I see I forgot to mention that Charity & Steve arrived back Tuesday evening to find their apartment had flooded. Also, they learned that the people they bought their house from would actually like to move out sooner than they had originally said. So, maybe this will work out in the end.

"What Happens in Vegas Stays in Vegas"

That is... unless it's too funny not to share!

So our weekend began at 5:30 Saturday morning at the sound of Shaun's phone ringing. He doesn't here it; I shove him, and his torso disappears off the bed. He comes up with phone, but it's stopped ringing. "It's just Dan" he says. Well, that means I need to get up. Then Dan calls to say they are on 465, so I have just 5 minutes to get up. I walk outside to the car. I'm starring up at the tree thinking there are a lot of birds and that all the apt's on the other side are shaded. I don't notice that Dan & Jen drove by, got out of the car, and were walking toward me. We laugh and I get them to the airport to see this huge line. So, I go back home, try to go back to sleep, and when the alarm goes off I tell him about this huge line and that we should get there a little early. Well he rushes me out the door and I wind up forgetting a few things.

When we arrive at the airport we don't know where to park. We ended up in what I later learned was Business Class $8 a day parking. Alas. So, we have a lay over in Minneapolis, and arrive safely in Vegas around 5. We are starving at this point because Northwest doesn't give you snacks. Instead they charge you for a $3 snack. We waited for our luggage to come around the carousel for 45 minutes. Then we get on the shuttle that took Dan and Jen over an hour, but luckily only took us a half over to get to our hotel on. As we are deboarding, we call Dan who tells us that Charity and Steve missed their flight, and won't be arriving until Sunday morning.

We arrive at the hotel to find Dan and Jen asleep. They get ready and go to the Celine Dion concert that Dan later described as phenomenal. (This is the only woman he pays to see all weekend, and she kept her clothes on). Amy arrives an hour late around 10 and we walk down to Treasure Island to meet Dan and Jen halfway. They do a show there, which was pretty dumb, but the fire part was cool. We went back to the hotel and went to bed.

Sunday we get up and Amy, Shaun and I head to the pool for some peak sun time exposure. We are called by Charity, who has now arrived, telling us to come get our luggage because we are changing rooms. Apparently we had paid for a room on the top floors and they had put us on the bottom. So, we go back, get Dan and Jen and all of our stuff and get ready to go. We go to Arby's for lunch, which was only slightly overpriced. Then, we went to a Native American shop and I bought some sunglasses, a necklace and matching earrings that I wore the rest of the trip. Then we took the bus down to the other end of the strip and we all walked back except Charity and Steve who took a cab. We walked into most of the hotels on the one side of the strip.

So Monday is where the real fun began. Charity got the brilliant idea to rent a vehicle and drive to the North Rim of the Grand Canyon. Sounds easy enough. We also wanted to go to the Hoover Dam, but this is in the opposite direction. So, we get up early and head out around 9am for the Hoover Dam. It was quite fascinating and we took most of the tours and tons of pictures. We head back to Vegas and stop and In and Out Burger due to Shaun's nagging request. I got a double double no bun. It was quite good. No one else was as impressed as us, but what are you going to do. Well, it's 3pm and we are now heading for the Grand Canyon. Now, we have asked several people at the concierge desk, gas stations clerks and the like how long it will take to get there. We heard estimates anywhere from 2 1/2 to 6 hours, with 5 hours being the general consensus to get to the South Rim. Well, we don't have 11 hours to go on this trip seeings how it's already 3pm. So, we opted for the "shortcut." Now this shortcut is on a "partially paved road." Oh, what the hell, let the adventure begin!

We start out on a fully paved road, but with no lines. But it has guard rails, so we think... this isn't so bad. Then... the road becomes unpaved, but with pretty nice gravel. We pass one truck who is stranded, but he's on a cell phone. We're thinking... hey we have cell phone service... can't be that bad. Then... then road becomes more narrow and more dirt, less gravel, no guard rails. Getting more skeptical. Two and half hours later, we have passed a total of 2 other trucks with drivers waving and laughing at us... this should be a sign. Next we starting seeing huge yellow road signs that read, "PRIMITIVE ROAD: ROAD NOT REGULARLY MAINTAINED. CONTINUE AT YOUR OWN RISK." Does this stop us?? Of course not! Forge ahead! So, now it's 6:15pm and we see this school house. We get out and learn that the last resident of this county was in 1988, with a population of one. This school house hasn't been used sin 1991, but had burnt down in 2001 and was rebuilt with donations. It was very cool, and we were taking all sorts of pictures since this is the first piece of civilization we've seen in 3 hours. The men look at the map and determine we would have to go as far as we've come to get to the Grand Canyon. Did I mention it was 6:15pm? So, Shaun and I try to convince everyone that the sun sets early in the desert and that we don't have time to go that far. Well, there's another sign that reads, "Whitmore Canyon 15 miles." Well, 5/7 vote was taken to forge to Whitmore Canyon. You can guess who the 2 that didn't want to go were. That's right... the bride and groom. Course, truth be told, Shaun and I wouldn't have even began a journey on a road labeled as partially unpaved. But, when there a group of you it suddenly seems like a good idea. Well, the road got a lot worse, and there were a ton of cows. Oh, and there were so many jack rabbits. We almost hit a dozen of them. So, anyway, we almost drive off a cliff and this is where Shaun and I determine that we've had enough and it's time to turn around. So, Dan decides to go 60 mph all the way back. Oh, and did I mention that we were in a mini-van! It was quite scary. So, we make it back 11:30.

So, Shaun said "we've been in Vegas for 3 days, and we haven't even gambled yet." So, we showered and went down and gambled. I lost $7, and was quite pissed about it.

Tuesday morning we Shaun and Dan woke up and went to a poker tournament. They lost. Jen and I sat around and relaxed while Amy went to the pool. Then we all went to eat at the lunch buffet. Then mom and Travis came over. Mom was apparently doing very well at Bridge. How bizarre. We went to the M&M factory and a few other places we hadn't been before. Jen went back to the pearl place we were on Sunday, and bought a necklace and earrings. She said she was so excited she was going to wear them to bed. I bought a pearl necklace that I'm going to wear to the wedding.

We had dinner at the Blue Iguana. It was one of the best Mexican places I've ever eaten, and it had the best margaritas. We flew back, and arrived at my apt at 6am. Needless to say, I didn't make it to work Wed!

Thanks to Shaun, Dan, Jen, Charity, Steve and Amy for another fun "group vacation" and I can't wait for the next one...

77 Days to G-O

So, we mailed the wedding invitations today. A little early, but now they are out of the house, and I'm looking forward to what recipes people will send us. I ordered a recipe card cookbook holder from Pampered Chef to put all these RSVP's in. We also ordered the shotglasses. They are quite cute, and should arrive in mid July. So, 2 more things checked off the list with only 47 more to go.

James and Angelina had a garage sale today. We only made a little less than $20. Alas. And we still have a ton of stuff. I guess I'm going to try and convince them to store it until they have their next garage sale over Labor Day weekend. Then we will have a bunch more stuff to sell. I came back and took a 2 hour nap... it was quite nice.

Dan defended his thesis yesterday. He did really well, and now has to publish a couple articles before he can say farewell to West Lafayette, IN and head to MN where he'll have to plug in his car. We went to Tony's and The Other Pub to celebrate last night. Jere and Lisa joined us for the occasion.

The Schafer-Lehnen family reunion is tomorrow. I'm so excited, even though I just saw most of the people last weekend at Bea and Bud 50th Anniversary party. I didn't really get to talk to them though. Then we're going to go to his dad's and drop off the digital camera that we and Kyle and Ashleigh went in on for his Father's Day/ Birthday Gift. Hey, doing it a week early. We were supposed to try and go golfing with my dad this weekend, but it's been raining so, we are going to try and do it the weekend after Vegas. Course my shower is that weekend, but hopefully we can fit it in Sunday.

We decided to make a trip to VA right after Stef and Josh's wedding. We are going to see Kyle for a couple days, then drive up and see Charity and Steve. They just bought a new house, so maybe they will be in it by the time we get there.

We went to meet with Dave yesterday for our final marriage counseling session, and he didn't show up. This was after we half wanted to cancel anyway since Dan wanted to go out to celebrate the completion of his master's and life with Dr. J. Alas. We drove for basically 2 hours for nothing. Linda was there, and didn't know what happened to him. She gave us a personality quiz that told us we are complete opposites. Nothing we didn't already know. But Shaun got to spend more time with Linda.

Catch-up

Tons have happened with no time for blogging. Let me try to recap. Had my first dress fitting yesterday. Basically my tits need to be bigger, and my ass smaller. So, hopefully the next one will go better which is June 23rd.

Finally got the sermons I ordered today at church. Apparently they had some troubles with the CD burner. So, I can't wait to hear them.

Shaun got the invitations stamped and stuffed. So, we are just waiting to mail them now. I'm getting ansy, so we may do it next weekend.

Saw Charity and Steve last weekend, she brought the flowers. They look really nice. Mine is really heavy. Mom called to say she got her flowers done, and she should be mailing them soon.

Convinced Stephanie to come down randomly Friday after work. She got to meet Jen and Dan and Kathleen. She left, and everyone else stayed to play poker.

Saturday we ran by his dad's to get the deposit for Mt. Jacks. I finalized everything with them this week. We picked our meals and such. I'm very excited about the rehearsal dinner. They are letting us bring in a cake so we don't have to pay for dessert. We are having a champagne toast there and at the wedding.

Today we are going to Otterbien for Bea and Bud's 50th Anniversary party. Last Sunday we went to Gma Water's where Bob, Charlene, Bernie, Barbara and Aunt Mary were there. I told Cassie I saw a glimpse of what our lives will be like in 50 years as Barbara and Charlene were complaining about their husbands. I'm meeting up with Cassie on Tuesday. We have a lot to catch up on. She informed me that Uncle Kenny is having is annual schindig on June 25th, the same day as my shower. Of course no one tell me about this, so I have to hear about it from Cassie. I swear I'm the first to hear everything about Shaun's family, and the last to hear about everything from my own family.

My hardrive crashed on Tuesday while I was recovering my food poisoning from a Memorial Day cheeseball. What a disaster. The new one came Thursday and Shaun installed almost everything for me, but told me to bring my Dell discs down. Well, I brought some discs, but none of them were the ones I needed. Alas. Most everything was backed up and Shaun and Jere were able to recover my Pampered Partner files.

So, hopefully this week will go a little better. Dan defends his thesis on Friday, which mean he and Jen will be leaving us shortly. We have our last marriage counseling session on Friday. James' neighborhood is having a garage sale Saturday, so we are going to take some junk over for that.

95 Days To Go...

So, the countdown is definitely on as we are in the double digits with 95 days and counting until the big day. I must say that things are pretty much under control. Maria gave me the envelopes today, so I could mail the invitations any time. I think I will grab that stuff when I stop by the apt today.

Here at work we are ending the lease on the National President's apt and everyone can bid on the stuff and take it home. So far I have come away with all the liquor, a very comfortable recliner, some crystal candlesticks and a little electric skillet with a glass lid. It's all very nice. I'm especially excited about the recliner as we don't really have any place to sit at the house. I'm trying to convince Shaun to borrow dad's truck and bring some of this stuff up to the house. I would like to move the bed up there since I think the air mattress is giving me back problems. My back has been really bothering me the last couple days. I should prolly just go to the Chiro instead.

Since the picture frames are finished I really have no reason to not finish the table name card descriptions. Which hopefully shouldn't take me too long. I need to do some other minor things, and get fitted for my dress. Other than that, I think I'm all set. So basically I'm just coasting. Charity said the bouquets and boutineers are finished, so I'm excited to see how those turned out. Her cousin and one of her bridesmaids is just got engaged and is getting married the weekend after us. I wouldn't want to be her right now. Just starting this daunting process. Course she's actually excited, so that would probably help. And her and her mother agree on things I guess, and she is coming out to help her. It truly is a blessing that my mother moved when I got engaged. I don't think I could've planned this with more of her input.

I'm still thinking about cutting a few more people off the guest list. People that I've tried to call, and I haven't talked to in months. I'll run it by Shaun. Yes, I must say that I really can't wait til this blessed event is over with.

Good Luck Kyle!

Kyle graduated from UTI and Volvo Safe this year and is on his way to a career at Phillips Volvo in VA Beach. I'm very excited for him... and proud. But, I'm also sad that he's leaving us. I've drove back to Lafayette today, and am going to drive again tomorrow to spend some more time with him before he goes. He came over for brat's tonight after him and Dad fixed my mirror. (Long story... card reader won). Ashleigh is going with him and is wanting to go back to school. I really hope she does. She just totaled her car last week, so is currently without wheels. Kyle is trying to sell everyone a Volvo now, and pretty much has me convinced. Maybe they could just send him to the sales floor when things are slow in the shop. So, I wish him well on his new venture, and can't wait to visit him in VA Beach!

So Intense

Stephanie came over for dinner last night. I made Salisbury steaks with baked potatoes with sour cream and little ears of corn on the cob. It was so good. Then we chit chatted and I showed off the proposal video, and other wedding paraphernalia . She left as Everwood was starting. It was so intense! Rose finds out she has cancer, Andy finds out he loves Nina, Bright finds out he likes Hannah, and that she still likes him, Amy doesn't tell Ephram that her mom has cancer, Ephram sold all his piano stuff to fund a trip to Europe, Bright turns down going with him to be responsible and go to summer school. Man, tons happened. Then I watched CSI Miami where Horatio and his sister-in-law find out that his brother might still be alive. Goodness.

So, tonight I think Beth and I are going to hit the gym. Carol and I went on a walk the last two days during lunch... every lit bit helps. Plus I haven't been in like 3 weeks. Tomorrow Krystal is coming over.... haven't seen her in weeks! And Thursday Shaun and I are going to Chicago for Kyle's graduation.

Adam found out he's definitely going and that he either has to be on a convoy (those things that get blown up all the time on the news) or law enforcement (sounds much less exciting, but more safe). So, we're praying for the second.

Good News and Bad News

So, good news first. Kyle got a job in VA beach at Phillips Volvo. They are paying his moving expenses and his new boss found him a 2 bdrm townhouse that's only $500/ month. Ashleigh has decided to move with him and maybe find a school to go to. He's really excited. He graduated this Friday, and Shaun and I are going up on Thursday to represent the family and celebrate. I'm so proud of him.

Bad news. Adam is being deployed to Iraq again in July. If that's not bad enough... he'll miss the wedding, and he was a groomsmen. So, Shaun is thinking about who he wants to replace him. He might have to go for training, even though he went through training the last time he went. Bill and Shaun and I talked about going to see him for a long weekend sometime between after June 12th. Course Shaun and I will be in Vegas the 18th-21st for our bachelor/ bachelorette parties so it can't be then. We've already booked the tickets.

OH, and Happy Mother's Day to mom, Angelina, Grandma Waters, Grandma Schafer, Ma, Grandma Sue, and all of you other mothers out there!

House Hunting

Shaun and I have been house hunting in recent weeks. Yes, this all began because my mother got the idea to sell her house. The one that Shaun moved all his belongings into thinking we were going to spend the next 3 years in. So, we found one last week we liked and then found one yesterday that we loved. It's out by Meijer, has a huge deck that extends past the master bedroom with another sliding glass door. It has vaulted ceilings, nice size bedrooms and kitchen, and it's in our price range. Plus the people are building and don't want to move out until mid-July, which is when we wanted to move.

So, then we're talking last night about possibly making an offer on this house, and discussing where we are going to come up with this money for a down payment, plus pay for this wedding. We have some people we could borrow from, but then we would just be in more debt than we are. And with me commuting to Indy everyday, my gas budget is going to increase significantly. Basically, we decided to talk to my mom and convince her that we need to stay there so we can use the next 3 years paying off debts and saving for a down payment. Because buying really doesn't make much financial sense. But, now that's we've been looking, I was getting really excited about owning a new home. But, if something went wrong with the house, we wouldn't be able to afford to fix it. So, Alas.

Do you not see me running circles around you?

What exactly goes through Leonard's mind when he enters the domain commonly known as work? I mean really. The most the guy moved today was when I briskly walked by and he dramatically threw his hands down as if me jetting by would blow the papers off his desk! Well, Leonard, maybe if you actually did some work, there wouldn't be so many papers on your desk and then me walking wouldn't be such a hindrance to you.

I met with the National President today on 3 different occasions. I swear this woman never makes up her mind about anything until it's too late. This she hands me this article ripped out of a Sky magazine (doesn't she know these things are free?) and says, "I would like something like this (commemorative gold coin) for the National Commandeers gift, but not exactly like it." Would someone like to tell me what the hell that means?

Meetinged Out

I wanted to get to work early this morning. Instead, I awoke at 7:20, got stuck in traffic, went to Starbucks and got to work at 8:05. I have just enough time to read my emails, check my voicemail, and yell at Leonard when I realize that I have a meeting at Worrell at 9 that I have to leave for by 8:30. I then read an email from Marta informing me that I'm now to take over all the purchasing, and that I can handle all the awards for convention. This is fine, but of course Rina has been doing the awards and I have no clue what's going on. And of course I have time to take over purchasing. After this email, I call Lucia and ask if she is ready to leave for our meeting. She says yes, so I go downstairs, only to find her on the phone. I'm wondering who she could be talking to when I realize it's Tony. So I walk to Tony's office and tell him to get off the phone so we can leave. So, we finally leave and then we get on I-74 instead of I-70 and wind up at the 4400 block of Post Rd instead of the 300 block. Get to meeting late. We're there for 2 hours. Get back to office only to find that Stephanie has already left for lunch and Carol is having leftovers from yesterday when we went to Old Pointe. I take one for the team, and ask Kay to go with me to Wendy's. Had an extremely crisp salad and a baked potato. Get back to office, read emails, look of faxes and answer messages. Lucia comes up to remind me that I have another meeting in 5 minutes with Von to discuss something I haven't had time to finish. Attend meeting to learn that it didn't matter because he had given me the wrong format to do it in. So, I got back to my desk at 2:30. Sat down. Sighed. Received phone call from Mitzi saying that I needed to get pricing on ribbons for event in Jan 2006. Can't this wait? Call from receptionist saying I have a fax. Thanks. Then I call and complain to the cubicle people who were supposed to dis/ and reassemble two work stations today and just came out and measured. Complained for 2 minutes. She said she would call back. We have an appt. for them to come out tomorrow and do their job. Called ribbon people. Then realized that the National President will be tomorrow and that I'm now included in that meeting so I can figure out what awards I still need to order. Not to mention that I have a Dr's appt in the morning and will be in late. Basically I'm fed up with meetings and petitioning to have them cease at once!

Busy Weekend...

Busy weekend. Met with up Travis and Christy Friday night at Rheilie Brothers. It was dead, but it was good to see them. We were exhausted, so we came home and went to bed. Saturday we got up at 8am to take Marie to the airport. We had a nice chat on the way down and picked up a couple things at the apt. on the way back to Lafayette. Then we met with Dad and Valerie at LBC. This was both their first times. They loved it. Then we went and looked at 9 houses. We feel in love with one in Valley Forge on George Washington. That's a long street name to write, but the house is adorable and reasonably priced. Then I met up with Stef and Josh and Janelle while he helped Dan move Jen into his apt. We stickered some garage sale stuff and then went to Shaun's. We took them to LBC so Josh could have the best hamburger ever. He's obsessed with hamburgers and was a definite fan of their Angus burger. Then we went to Fantasy Gift Shop because Stef wanted to go. I still can't figure that one out. Then we came home and went to bed. We all went to church this morning, for a very good service and then swung by the house in Valley Forge. Then we tried to go to lunch at LBC, but forgot they were closed on Sundays, so we went to Arni's instead. I'm still full. Then Shaun went to his dad's to change is oil and Josh and Stef and I went back to finish stickering the garage sale stuff. They dropped me off at Bill's and then headed home. Shaun is now cooking steaks on the new grill and Bill is making fries and just finished with the salad. Hope I get hungry soon.

Bereavement Day

So apparently you get 3 days of bereavement pay when an immediate family member passes away. So, I went to Stephanie's last night, help her drink a bottle and half of wine, and now I'm sitting at Shaun thinking about going to pick up/ look at my wedding dress b/c it came in yesterday. Yesterday was horrible. No, this whole week has been horrible. Talked to Stephanie and she said it's not getting any better so I guess I'm glad I didn't go in today. Well, Gma just called to say her and Marie are going to insurance company, so I guess I should leave.

Weird Ass Day

So, my day began with Shaun getting up at 8, leaving to go to PU to see his prof about this thesis he's supposed to be getting bound and turned in by Friday and I get in the shower. He calls to ask what I want from Starbucks. I say my usually, caramel Mocha, Non-fat with whip. He shows up with, well... I never quite figured out what, but I'm thinking a high-fat cappucino with caramel drizzle. So, then we head to the showing where everyone is asking me about my cervix. (For more on this event see blog below). Then we try to buy a ream of 20lb 100% cotton paper for his thesis. Staples only has 300 sheets, Office Max, Copymat, Follets, Kinkos and University Bookstore only have 24lb. So, we're thinking that we read the sheet wrong. No, we get back to the house to discover that we read is correctly, but on the website it says that it can be up to 24lb. So, we go back to Kinko's to get the paper. We get home, only for me to realize that I need to get my rent check from dad's because I won't see him again before the first. So, we leave, come back, pull in the drive for my mom to call and say that they are leaving and so I need to leave again to go to grandma's. I just want to go to bed.

Good-bye Grandpa

My grandma's husband died Saturday. Donald Waters. My grandparents had been married for 10 years in February. He has been a grandpa to me and a dad to my mom and sister. They had a pool that I and my friends would swim in. He is the best husband my grandma had. On their 3rd date he knew he wanted to marry her. They were so cute together and I think my grandma thought they would get older together. He was 73. Today was his showing and funeral. My mother and Aunt Re said some touching words. His granddaughters spoke also. There wasn't a dry eye in the place. Shaun said it was the most depressing showing he's ever been to. Then at the funeral, someone passed out and the ambulance came. My cousin Laura ripped off her jacket, stormed over and said, "I'm a nurse, out of the way!" I told her we were proud to call her family. So, there was no service and we all went to the Eagles to eat. I am so full I'm uncomfortable. This is why family is a bad influence.

"I'm not even supposed to be here today"

So, I came into work this afternoon after Leonard told the receptionist that I wouldn't be here. I've been here a total of 1/2 hour and I've already heard, "You're not supposed to be here today!" Well, stop giving me more work to do so I won't feel obligated to come in today. I heard that the whole 4 1/2 hours I was here yesterday too. Too funny. It's nice that people care that I probably should be at home resting, but then if I want to come in I should feel like I won't get kicked out. Now that I see all this work on my desk, I'm thinking "I'm not even supposed to be here today." Alas.

Lucia came over last night for dinner. We had turkey with gravy, mashed potatoes, a very yummy salad that she made and apple crisp that was so good. Lucia is moving out on her own after living with 3 other ladies in June. I told her to be prepared to be lonely, because I sure was when I first moved out by myself. She is realizing that she doesn't have anything: flatware, plates, furniture. I went through that once. Hard to believe, I had so much stuff, but not the things I needed. I'm trying to come up with some things I could give her to help her out.

Weekend Happenings

Saw Stef on Friday. We went to Josh's band contest, they got gold. Stef bought me a caramel mocha and a 7 layer cake. Stef's boss and her husband bought us dinner. Sat. morning we went to IHOP with her mom and Aunt Diane and Diane bought lunch. I came back because I thought Travis and Christy were going to come over, and Kathleen was going to stop by. Didn't see any of them. Krystal and Chris came over and we went to the canal. Chris paid for a paddle boat. Then we went to Krystal's and Chris made steak, with baked potatoes and salad. Shaun gets home Sat. night. Sun we woke up and went shopping. Shaun bought new golf clubs. I got a new tennis racket for $2.35. How exciting. Mon. I had my surgery. I went to work today, and everyone yelled me and told me to go home. So, now I'm at home waiting for Lucia to come over for dinner. I guess I should figure out what to make.

Co-Workers

So I have this co-worker who frequently asks whether you like her or not. One of these days I'm going to write yes or no check boxes on a sheet of paper, check no, and give it back to her. I mean your 62 years old and you are still worrying about the dumbest things. And I'm sorry, if you have to ask, the answer is no.

So, went to Wendy's with Carol for lunch. It was quite good and Carol bought, so it tasted even better! That is the 2nd time I've been there this week. Carol and her husband work at Conner Prairie and help with tours and such. Currently they are doing the "Follow the North Star" where you are a slave and there is a slave master that takes you to the auction to be sold and then you travel to freedom. At the end the slave master reads off statistically which people would've drowned or made it to safety. It sounds very interesting. She said she could get me tickets if I wanted to go sometime, so I think I will have to check it out.

I think Leonard is wearing off on me. I feel like to doing absolutely nothing. I'm thinking about seeing Stef tomorrow and my new shirt I'm wearing, and how tasty my lunch is. I have tons to do, just no motivation to do it. So, this must be what it feels like to be Leonard.

Travis

So Travis finally created a blog! I'm so excited, even though it may only last a week before he gets bored. You may visit his blog here. I thought it was absolutely hilarious and I really hope there are more posts to come. And as for "Who would read this shit?" I would Travis. And come to think of it, you read mine.

So, Travis and Christy are coming to Indy today to celebrate Christy's birthday. Hopefully I can hook up with them for dinner or something tomorrow.

Happy Birthday & Anniversary Shaun!

Today has gone so slowly. Every time I looked at the clock it felt like 2 hours should've gone by and not 20 minutes. Alas. Leonard was also moving slowly... not a good combo. At least I got quite a bit finished.

Shaun's coming down for a little bit tonight before he leaves for the happening town of Columbus, OH for the ANS conference. He and Dan have to present. Yeah for them.

Today is Shaun's 25th birthday and our 7th Anniversary. Hard to believe... but I'm so happy that we're still together. I love you honey!

I actually went to the grocery store again last night. So weird. This is becoming a regular thing. I got everything on sale including some sour cream potato salad, hoeny roasted turkey and nacho cheese (even though I still have 1/2 a container at home). It really is cheaper.

Monday News

So I'm playing Miss Match-Maker this week. See I'm sitting in church on Sunday and while I'm supposed to be praying about things I'm thankful for, I'm think... Allen and Stu. And I'm in pray, so this must be a sign from God. See, Allen is my 48 year cousin and Stu is my 49 year old co-working, both of whom have never been married, no kids, gainfully employed and own their own houses. Oh, and they both love Sci-Fi. So, I'm convinced this is a match made in heaven. I sent Stu and picture of him today and she whispered to me how nice the picture is. I've called our Aunt Bea (Mrs. Gossip) and she called Allen's sister Regina to get more dirt. I'm still awaiting a call from her. Stu is now glowing... as am I. I really hope this works out.

I've been fairly productive today, although I still have yet to mail my taxes. Yes, I realize that today is April 12th and I have only 3 days left. I did manage to bring them to work, but forgot my W2's. Alas.

Leonard decided to grace us with his presence today. So he's finally working on rearranging the 4th floor which I wanted finished like 2 weeks ago. Instead we been bombarded with various other projects.

Talked to Stef last night before I worked out. She and Josh are doing a lot better and I can't wait to see her on Friday night. We're going to see Josh's band play and then skip out and have some much needed girl time.

Krystal came over last night. We were trying to find the video with my whale watching footage on it. I couldn't find that, but found all the Christmas footage since 2000. And then we stumbled upon "Moments from the Guenther-Henson Household." We started to reminisce about the fun times we had and how we sometimes miss having a roommate. Soon, I will have a great roomie... Shaun :)

Sunday Night Already

I really don't know where the weekend went. So we met with the house lady. She is very nice and Shaun said she is exactly who you think of when you picture a realtor. But she is very "in tune" with Lafayette and I think will find us something great. We drove around for nearly 2 1/2 hours looking at possibilities in different areas of town. We are thinking an existing home will be cheaper than building. So, Saturday night I had planned a surprise party for Shaun at BW3. It went very well. The following people showed up to congratulate him: James (co-planner), Angelina, Jere, Lisa, Anna, Ian, my dad, Valerie (a.k.a. Vicky), Renee, Courtney, Aunt Dink, Kyle and Amy. So a pretty good turn out... and best of all, Shaun was surprised. We stayed until about 9:30 and then went to Travis' for awhile. There wasn't much happening there and we were getting up for church this morning so we left around midnight. Church was very good this morning. There were actually two songs we knew. Today's sermon is the first of a 7 week series of the 7 T's. Today was Thanksgiving. He read off a lot of statistics of how many people are hungry, homeless and that one million people won't be alive at the end of the week. Scary really. So, basically we should be thankful because we don't know what God has in store for us. This also tied in with last week's sermon on not worrying and giving your worries to Christ. So, I'm excited to hear the next 6 sermons. My dad's neighborhood garage sale is in a few weeks and I really need to work on getting things stickered and sorted. Alas. It's been so nice the last week, but it's supposed to rain this week, so maybe I will get more done. I still haven't mailed in my taxes. Yes, I realize that the deadline is this week. I'm even getting money back. I don't know what my deal is. Well, hopefully I will get a lot accomplished this week... and I can blog.

Insanity!

So I've been working every night until 7pm and I've been so busy while I'm at work that I've almost forgotten to take a lunch. So needless to say, there's been no time for blogging. So, other than working, I've been hanging out with "my new best friend" as everyone is calling her. Her name is Stephanie, and she's a co-worker. I went to her house for dinner last night, and we had several glasses of wine with our tacos. She just bought a new condo... it's very cute. Shaun defended his masters thesis today. He did great, and even thanked me in the acknowledgments. I love him. So we went to Tony's to celebrate and saw Jere and Lisa there. They were going to go to the "Wine Tasting on the Wabash" thing. It sounded so fun. I tried to convince Shaun to go the last two years, but I guess it's like the carriage ride... I will have to be on my death bed before I get to go. Alas. So we're meeting with Jere's realtor (who is also a friend of the family) tomorrow at 2 and are going house shopping; I'm very excited. So, I will keep you posted...